Tuesday, November 24, 2009

this is an english major's blog after all. deal with it (and give feedback)

Little bit of a good news/bad news there.  My professor is intrigued by my topic, but strongly encouraging a new direction to see if I come up with the same conclusion.  Read: I'm stretching it with the fish, but it's not totally out of left field if I redirect my question through the lens of "The Fisherman and His Wife," this Grimm fairy tale that is threaded throughout the work.
So now I'm all kinds of losing confidence. 

The best part of being an English person is the freedom to read and interpret and analyze and make really fun conclusions and contribute to the critical conversations surrounding important works and authors.  This is also the worst part.
Because seriously.  There are few rules outside of "Come up with a question. Ask that question. Try to find the answer and if you can't find one, make one up."  It's awesome because if that answer is a solid response to the canon, then you are a rock star. #thesiswin 
It's awful because if you make that answer up and people like your professor go "Um ... I'm not sure you can actually conclude that because -- " then you are a loser.  #thesisfail

So it was a disappointing to have my question cut down and handed back to me.  Maybe (definitely) I'm just stubborn, but I refuse to give up the fish.  And yes, I understand that TTL is a seaside novel and fish can be read as local color, but Woolf does not just throw literary references around all helter-skelter: a fairy tale about fish punctuated by a novel consumed with fish has to be significant.  The gender roles, Victorian/modern crisis, Cam and Lily's ideas of "woman," all framed by this fishy fairy tale?  The dinner parties alone, you guys.  Woolf.  Dinners. ...of fish
Insert ominous music here.

New deep-breath-refocus-reresearch plan: build some fable knowledge, familiarize myself with some key analysts, come to the same (similar? please?) significant conclusion from a more interesting perspective.
But I can't just make it significant.  It actually has to be significant and not just a marine fetish on my part.

Jeezum.  Why can't I pick a concrete, simple-prose author to be all about.  And fish?  What crazy person chooses fish?


Godrevy Island and its lighthouse of yore. 
But however does one get there.

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